It's been 7 months since I came back from new Zealand. Time flies and now I just finished my first costume job in Denmark. Coming back from NZ was hard especially because I was very naive and thought it would be easy to get a job and everything. This probably makes me sound lazy but I had to do much more than I thought to get a job in costume which made me stressed and sad especially on top of just leaving two of the best years I ever had in New Zealand. I was lucky that through the New Zealand Dance School, I got a contact in the costume department in The Danish Royal Theatre. I had a meeting with them where I told them what the school taught me and showed them the things I've made. Lucky me! They offered me a job for two months on a play. The play was called Røde Orm (translated: Red Serpent) and was a fantasy story about danish vikings. It all happened next to a museum and it was all outside, which gave the costume department lots of fun challenges with 80 extras and 15 actors with costumes that wasn't reeeaaly made for heavy rain. But the weather didn't stop anyone one the production from being happy and we all felt like a big family. It was the best first job experience and exactly what I needed after several months with either no job or a job that didn't really made me happy. Røde Orm especially taught me what I'm really bringing back from New Zealand, both skills and personality. I feel like I am even closer now to knowing who I want to be in a work environment and I reckon in life too.
I still have lots of doubt and lots of confusion.
Now that the job is over I have moved back to Copenhagen. I am starting to realise what kind of work life I am saying yes to which is a bit difficult for me to just except. I feel really bad having doubts about doing something very exiting. At the moment I am waiting for an email which will say if i got a job or not. A crazy job I didn't even imagine that I might be able to get. If I get this job I will have to move country for maybe a year and YES that is exiting and an amazing new adventure but I also have this other side of me who feels pretty good about not going anywhere for a while. It almost feels just as exiting to get a theatre job or something here, find a nice flat, live with awesome people and save money for a drivers licence or maybe even a kayak. Silly and basic things. It is very confusing having plans and dreams for years about working around the world making costumes for films and theatres and now also at the same time having a dream of just doing very normal things and to stay in one place for a while. I reckon part of it comes from that stupid fear of not having enough time to do all the things you want. And I know I do. I've got lots of time but the problem is that I want to do everything right away.
Do I have to choose between a successful career or a normal life? Am I overreacting? When is it ok to change your mind and when should I listen to my gut and when should I take the chances? Will the choices I make now affect what I'll be doing later? Of course it will but will I regret it? Are these questions completely stupid or are they just normal? Sometime we make our problems way to big and forget that usually lots of people go through the same things and we are not really that special or unique. Most would tell me to jump and take a chance but sometimes I feel like I am lost of energy to make another bold move.
In a couple of days I will know what is going to happen and if I'll be moving again. Oh the challenges of life - how I love it :D
In 2nd year we are lucky to have a lot of workshops where we get to work with different materials and learn techniques from very competent makers from New Zealand. Last term we had leather workshop for three weeks with Nadine Jaggi. She taught us basic skills such as debossing, dying, thonging, glueing etc. Besides handing in sample of different techniques on leather we had to create a pair of vambraces each. It was all up to us designing and choosing the skills we wanted to show in them. I was having trouble finding a way to make my bodice for Major Work that gives it structure but still is simple to make/ cheap. I decided to have a talk with Nadine about making it in leather which then actually seamed like the best way. So from knowing that I had to explore how I could make the bodice in leather I chose to use my vambraces as a test.
I tried wet molding the leather to create leaves and I did debossed leaves in the leather as well. This workshop was such an eyeopener to the world of leather but also to the skill of committing to a task and not treating the project I am working on as the last thing I'll ever do. It especially helps me work more efficient on Major Work, cause even though it is such a precious thing for all of us in the class, it is still not the last costume and it is more an opportunity to learn new skills, find out what you can do and what area of costume you might be in love with.
This term (Term 3) we started with a week of Metal & Jewelry making with Tony Drawbridge. An amazing workshop that teaches us skills in costume props making. He taught us how to mold and cast things using silicone and polyurethane. He is a jewelry maker/ metal worker as well so we got to make rings in silver, copper or brass. It is amazing how you can look at a piece of jewelry and not have a clue how it was made and then after a week you have suddenly made a ring that shines and everything! We were very lucky that Tony was open to helping us with parts of our major work that we might not know how to do and translates more to a costume prop. He has given me some tricks to make the elf ears on my one, which I am still trying to figure out because it is something that I find quite hard to make in an alternative way rather than the "professional way".
These kind of classes are so great because they remind me that even though my main skill is in sewing, there are so many other things that I can do. When you have an eye for creativity it is easy to receive new skills and add them to the area that you work in. I love getting to know other sides of my creativity and I feel very lucky that Toi gives us these opportunities. I also love that our guest tutors are the coolest people ever who have worked on Lord of the Rings, Avatar and lots of other projects!
We are three weeks into 2nd term and one of our projects is Another Time Another Place. We have to realize a full costume design that our tutor have chosen. I have made the pattern and the calico mockup has been fitted on the model, so now I can start playing with the real fabrics!
We all have a different design in my class and they will all be modeled in the showcase in September!
I just got home from a great day in town with a lovely friend. We wondered around and decided to go watch a movie! I have in a long time wanted to watch Room and today was the day!
We went to this lovely cinema called The Lighthouse. It is a small and "hyggelig" cinema with red curtains on the wall and couches to sit in. I was so exited for the movie and felt like I knew what I was going into. I kinda did but also not at all!
Reading a little bit about the movie before today taught me that it is based on the novel "Room" which is inspired by a disgustingly! real case in Austria. The movie shows the life of a woman, Ma/Joy and her son, Jack in Room. Room is the room they live in and never leaves. They have a bed, toilet, bath, a tiny kitchen (if you can call it that), a table and a closet. Without going into too many details Ma has been living in Room for 6 years since she was kidnapped by Old Nick who is also the "father" of Jack. They plan an escape and succeeds and then there is the whole story about them trying to live in the real world and dealing with what they have been through.
First of all, I have never reacted to a movie this physically! The escape scene made my hard pound so hard and my hands shake. You really really fear that Old Nick somehow takes Jack back or even kills Ma after realizing that they tricked him! I was so invested in their situation from the start! It is kind of the typical hollywood "let's have a kid show lots of emotions so the audience can feel something" but it didn't feel like that at all. The whole thing is so honest and the story of Ma living her life and telling Jack what ever he needs to hear to keep him safe or to make their chance to escape higher, is being told really well.
- The scene when Ma tries to explain Jack that there is other things outside Room and that Room isn't the only thing that exists, was technically shown in such a good way and made me feel it so much!
The second half of the movie when they have escaped and start living with Ma's parents made me at first question why Ma wasn't reacting more, or wasn't more paranoid. She was very focussed on how Jack was doing which made sense, but I was expecting a bigger reaction from her side - until later in the film when she obviously isn't okay!
Although the movie was almost only focussed on Jack and Ma, I wouldn't have minded it to be more. It almost ruined it a little bit for me to suddenly meet a lot of other characters because I was only interested in Jack and Ma's journey. It could almost have been cut shorter and more intimate with their point of views.
The movie took me on an emotional roller-coaster. I got paranoid every time I saw a man in the movie who looked a little bit like Old Nick, I got so angry watching the interview of Ma, I got stressed, scared - and I also laughed a couple of times. It made me leave the theatre with an great and also chocked feeling and I just felt like I needed to write this reaction down!
I don't want to talk more about it cause I am not a film critic but if you want to have a strong, emotional and a good traumatized(if that makes sense) movie experience - go watch Room!!
I have 1 month until school starts. I am to begin my second and final year, and we are doing our Major Work which is the biggest project in the entire course. We will be working on it all year as an independent study. This means that we also have to choose our design pretty much when we begin the year. I have been looking at sketches, painting, animations etc and it is such a hard choice... Even though we still have a month it would be nice to have an idea of what kind of costume I would like to make. And I'm so not sure!
It should be a challenge or something that we haven't done before. It should also be something that represents us or the kind of work that we like to do or want to do. I think my problem right now is that I want to do so many different things. I don't think that I have a specific area of costume that I only want to be in, because I am still so interested in all of them.
SO, looking at aaaaaall of the pictures that I have gathered on Pinterest(200) I realized that I had to pick the ones that I keep coming back to and put them somewhere else.
The pairs interests me a lot. Somehow I think the story on the stage and the purpose of the costume is much better and easier to tell when there is two. Not sure if that i true though. I am quite interested in all of them and I know that this is not going to be the last garment that we create!!! These pictures are just all so different and represent their own different area of costume.
I think one thing that I am trying to find in a design is some kind of authenticity. But i still don't know in what form and if I am leaning more to the fantasy kind of costume or the historic or if I maybe want to make dance costumes!! It still helps a lot seeing these pictures without all the other ones on Pinterest even thought one of these might not be the one I choose.
This is just all my messed up thoughts that are probably not going to help me, but anyways, it is what school is for me right now - even though we haven't started yet!!!
I am starting to look at the movies that are coming out next year and I am especially exited about these!!:
The Jungle Book! - THE JUNGLE BOOK!
The Hateful Eight - Another Tarantino Western!
The Legend of Tarzan - This is probably going to have the same feeling as The Jungle Book, and some might say that its just another stupid remake of Disney's classics but I love it and I cant be more exited for those two films as long as they don't change the stories too much.
Zoolander 2 - Just because!
The BFG - Don't know the story but its Disney and Steven Spielberg so hopefully that turns out really great :D
I started making a tutu for the Nz School of Dance monday last week! So far I have cut the 11 layers, prepared the knickers and pleated and sewn on 5 of the layers on + bumfluff! :D It is so much fun! The one I am making is the wedding dress for Aurora - Sleeping Beauty.
The reason I'm doing this is because I wanted something to do during the break, but mostly because I have alway wanted to learn how to sew a tutu and we are 'only' going to make romantic tutu's next year. It is also a part of my exploration of what kind of costume I am interested in and it's maybe going to assure me what I want to make for my Major work next year.
First post on my blog!! And I have no idea of what I'm doing! So I am going to try and explain the purpose of this website and blog.
Because I think I am about to become some kind of an artist or worker, I feel like it is useful for me to have a space on the internet where I can share my work and people can contact me if they find it interesting. It has also been difficult for me to show everyone at home - Denmark, what I do which is why this blog is here. I never post pictures or updates on Facebook and I am really bad at writing emails, so this is going to be a space for me to show and tell everyone what I am up to and post pictures of everyday activities and work.
Lets hope this post is not going to be the last! :D
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